“All I wanted to feel was loved. Not to be in love, but to feel loved.”
This entry is from another one of those nights where I should have been doing my homework BUT was distracted by random thoughts roaming through my head. It was a point in my life when I was looking back at all the fucked up relationships I’d been in and realized I was never looking for love, but simply validation. I’m supper glad I figured that out sooner than later. Check out the post below and I’ll give you an update on where I am now at the end:
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So I’m supposed to be doing my homework since I have finals tomorrow however while taking a smoke break to relax and clear my head, I ended up filling my head with thoughts and reasons for why I used to settle for all the wrong men back in 2010, and why this year things seem a little different. When I was checking my blog stats for Naybesa.com I saw a few people had been reading a diary entry I did called “When Will My Time Come” [which is now called “I’m Abstinent + Single, And I’m Fine With It”) and I remembered this was a post that really had my mind going everywhere while writing it so I thought I would take a second and read it. In doing so, I realized that at that point in my life, the reason why I was so fed, up and the reason why I kept settling and finding the wrong men wasn’t because my twat stank, or because I just was a hot mess, it was because I was looking for validation and not love. And let’s be real, those are two completely different things!
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